The North Star in a three hour time lapse.
Arrogance
I am stage managed
in my intention, willing
to change direction,
to stand on the "x"
at your cue, as you bring up
the lights, drop the scrim.
Soon I shall sweep clean
the stage of all the others,
stand alone as if
I am the North Star.
September 18, 2010 6:44 AM
Arrogance is a thorn in my side. I struggle. Not as much as I did in my younger days, but still. It is really hard to be humble. I work hard to continue to learn and I hone my various skills. If you ask me why I will be irritated and ultimately refuse to talk to you. Unless I am lonely or something. I try not to be like that though and try not to show it even if I am. Lonely or something. Heaven forbid you ever award me with any real power over others. It's not that I have any concept what I might do. It's that I also work hard to avoid anything like real responsibility as well.
Of course I fail in my program of action and I have responsibilities just like anyone else might and also I am burdened with knowing I am not good at avoiding things either. Just like all the other stuff I am not good at. Shit.
Oh Lord it's hard to be humble
ReplyDeletebut I'm doing the best that I can.
I think my son said he suffers from it too. It's a thorn for those who are blessed with intelligence I think. He will need to learn temperance in dealing with others. You need intelligence with heart else you'll end up living within walls. Please do not refuse to talk to me.